Oma PlantAs you know, I’ve been away for a while. The reason is that my mum died three weeks ago at her house in France. I have been there for a long time; first to be with her, then to be with my dad (they were going to celebrate their 40th anniversary this December)…
My mum was first diagnosed with breast cancer about six years ago and it was successfully treated at that time. Last summer it was suddenly back, and despite all her struggles, this time it just couldn’t be beaten.

I will miss her…
I will miss her for the big things in life (births, birthdays, anniversaries, holidays…), the little things (advice, recipes, gossip, daily chit-chat), but most of all I will miss her as the grandmother of my children.
She was such a wonderful and perfect ‘oma’ (Dutch for granny), and my children adored her as such. You can’t imagine the amount of dresses she has sewn, jumpers she has knit, cards she has written and presents she has bought in the little time (three years) she had to be what she was looking forward to most: being a grandmother.

It’s a cliché, but it is oh, so true: Sometimes, life just isn’t fair…

xxx Esther

P.S. the funeral


Comments (12)

June 30, 2008

oh gosh…i’m crying again now!
but welcome back!!!

June 30, 2008

I’m crying too!!!
Yes, we’re so happy you are back. We’ve missed you terribly!

June 30, 2008

I’m very,very,very sorry…But here, in Brazil, where I read every day your blog, I am praying and thinking how wonderfull memories you will have forever….
There is a word in portuguese, that do not have any translations in other language and it’s SAUDADE….It means that you will always be thinking and missing that special moments….
Welcome back

June 30, 2008

LIeve Esther,
Love you loads and know how you feel…. Everything my kids and I experience since my dad passed away has been such a mixed feeling of blessing (them beng born) but great sadness that he has had never the chance the share it with me…..he would have loved them soooo much, but somehow I know he knows and can see us, oh no now I am crying….still after almost 5 years, it is so sore, but also keeps his memory alive. I will miss your mam too, she was great adn will not be forgotten!xxxK

June 30, 2008

I am so sorry for your loss. We are thinking of you. Kat xxx

June 30, 2008

Oh honey really thinking of you and the family. Welcome back xxx

July 1, 2008

I am so sorry for your loss. Hugs!

July 1, 2008

I’m sorry for your loss and sadness. My mom passed away very suddenly 10 years ago, and I still miss her every single day. I am missing her more and more now that I have children. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Welcome back. It’s not easy, but be strong.

July 2, 2008

Un clin d’oeil sur ton blog…………
……de tout coeur

Il est 7h12, heure Française…… Killian se lève………..
regarde la photo de ta Maman

Il me dit : Maman, que fais tu ?
je lui réponds maladroitement : j’écris à Mimina.
La réponse de l’enfant : demande lui pourquoi il n’y a pas beaucoup de Soleil aujourd’hui !! (nous avons eu un orage violent hier soir)
… j’ai eu une larme…………..

July 3, 2008

I was really touched by your story as I can relate to it entirely.
I lost my beautiful mother 10 months ago to cancer. Still having a lot of trouble dealing with my loss.
We live in a crazy world…and as you said life isn’t fair sometimes.
Unfortunately, my 2 children will miss out on having grandma around to teach and love them.
Penny (from Australia) x

October 27, 2008

Thanks for sharing. I understand.

April 7, 2010

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